Hopelessness, Hurt, Hatred

I haven’t written a post in a long time because I just don’t know what to say. I can’t tell the difference between what’s real and what’s not anymore. I can’t tell what’s anxiety or depression and what’s really me. And part of me thinks there isn’t a real me anymore, not beyond mental illness. […]

Trust Issues and Paranoia

I’m sorry it’s been a few days since my last post. I’ve been finding it hard to get motivated to write about my feelings and I’m not entirely sure why. Things with my husband are going okay, aside from the trust issues that are crippling me right now. I desperately want to trust him, and […]

The Rollercoaster of the Past Few Days

A few days ago I started communicating with my Mum again. We exchanged a few messages, had a few short conversations. It went well; we didn’t go into anything deeply, but it wasn’t superficial either which was good. It got to the point where I was just missing her so much and the relationship we […]

I’m Lost

I feel lost. I’m just drifting through life but I don’t know why and I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t even know who I am. There are so many voices in my head and I can’t tell what’s rational and what’s not, what’s truth and what’s anxiety. I don’t trust anyone and it’s […]

Fathers

It’s Father’s Day. I have a wonderful father, I really do. I know I’m very lucky to have him; a father who listens, who cares, who makes me laugh, who understands, who would do anything for me. I know his heart is breaking right now because his marriage is disintegrating before his eyes and there’s […]