Fighting Fear

I’ve been feeling incredibly low over the past few days. I think it’s because of my recent commitment to try my best to trust my husband again and turn over a new slate. As part of this I promised I’d do my best to stop checking up on him and searching through his phone and […]

My Reality

Today has been another day when I have been reminded how much I despise anxiety and depression (as if I need reminding). It’s also shown me how having a cough and a sore throat, added to a great need for sleep, can exacerbate anxiety and depression considerably. And to top it off, my husband’s getting unwell too, which  triggers […]

Thinking

I had a pretty deep conversation with my husband yesterday. I showed him a few of my recent blog posts because I find it easier that way, it gives him an insight into my feelings that we can then build a discussion on. He was very kind and very understanding. He wasn’t defensive. I felt […]

Perks Of Time Travel

I am unbelievably tired. And time is passing unbelievably slowly. I just want 6 o clock to arrive so I can put my boy to bed and have blissful peace. He’s at that cute but infuriating stage where he’s incessantly curious, playing with everything he shouldn’t. He scoots around the room exploring and I love […]

Drained

It’s been one of those draining days where I feel like I need about 15 hours sleep in order to recharge. I’m just exhausted in every way. My brain is telling me to just put my phone down and go to sleep, but I find it difficult to consider doing that. I don’t think I […]

Physically and Emotionally Exhausted

The past couple of days have been pretty hard for me. They’ve been very emotionally intense, as well as physically trying. My little girl started school on Tuesday, and I’ve been on such a rollercoaster of emotion with it. I’ve felt excitement, fear, relief, dread, inadequacy…a whole mixture of feelings. My husband took a couple […]