I Love Living

This will be a happy post, because happy thoughts make a person feel good. I apologise if it’s boring for anyone, you don’t have to read it because it’s mainly for my benefit. I just want to cheer up a bit. I love my husband. I love my children. I love my sisters and my […]

Clifftop

I was hoping recovery would be a straight shot to the finish line, that once I’d started it would be easy and I’d be unstoppable. I knew I was wrong, but I still hoped. But unfortunately my hope was misplaced. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad that I’m making progress in certain areas of my […]

Mish-mash

I’m finding it so hard to blog at the moment. I don’t know why it’s suddenly so difficult, but I really dislike it. Blogging is helpful and therapeutic for me, as well as boosting my self esteem because I feel I’ve achieved something. So why does it take gargantuan effort to get myself to do […]

Perks Of Time Travel

I am unbelievably tired. And time is passing unbelievably slowly. I just want 6 o clock to arrive so I can put my boy to bed and have blissful peace. He’s at that cute but infuriating stage where he’s incessantly curious, playing with everything he shouldn’t. He scoots around the room exploring and I love […]

On Edge

I’ve got so much going on in my head, and I really don’t know what to write about. I saw my doctor yesterday and I was really nervous about it. I don’t like talking about my anxiety and depression, even though I do trust her and she’s helped me a lot. She prescribed me some […]

“Hello Beautiful”

Yesterday I walked into my bedroom to get ready for bed and my husband, already lying in bed, said “hello beautiful”. It made me smile like I was a little girl again. It’s not like he doesn’t tell me I’m beautiful normally because he does, so I’m not sure why this time affected me so […]

Weakness Becomes Strength

Yesterday was hard for me. I was panicked for a lot of the day, the tension in my stomach never really left for long. All day I was seeking distraction, but if anything worked it was only temporary. Today is better though, thank goodness. I’m feeling more at ease with everything. It’s a relief. This […]

Feeling Stable

Update: last night was awful (hence my rather negative entry) but I’m feeling more stable now. It’s fairly late so I think I’ll write a more descriptive post tomorrow about what’s gone on lately, but I’m so glad I’m feeling okay at the moment. I really hope the worst is over and I’ll stay fairly […]

Life in Increments

I need to take life one day at a time. If I try to think about more than that, it quickly becomes overwhelming and reminds me how terrified I am of that future. But just one day…I can manage one day. So that’s all I’ll aim for. I’ll aim to get through just one more […]