No Purpose

Today is a low day. It’s like trudging through treacle, except falling doesn’t taste so sweet. I wish I could just sleep away the day, escape from the suffocating darkness. I wish I could look in the mirror and not be repulsed by what I see. On days like this I wonder what the point […]

Sleep Is My Solace

I can only get away From the blackness The pain Agony When I’m asleep Because for a few moments I’m free And I can give myself a break But lately sleep has become harder More elusive And I find myself thinking: What if one day I can’t escape What if I have to spend the […]

Perks Of Time Travel

I am unbelievably tired. And time is passing unbelievably slowly. I just want 6 o clock to arrive so I can put my boy to bed and have blissful peace. He’s at that cute but infuriating stage where he’s incessantly curious, playing with everything he shouldn’t. He scoots around the room exploring and I love […]

Drained

It’s been one of those draining days where I feel like I need about 15 hours sleep in order to recharge. I’m just exhausted in every way. My brain is telling me to just put my phone down and go to sleep, but I find it difficult to consider doing that. I don’t think I […]

Physically and Emotionally Exhausted

The past couple of days have been pretty hard for me. They’ve been very emotionally intense, as well as physically trying. My little girl started school on Tuesday, and I’ve been on such a rollercoaster of emotion with it. I’ve felt excitement, fear, relief, dread, inadequacy…a whole mixture of feelings. My husband took a couple […]

LET ME SLEEP PLEASE

I’m laying here and I just can’t sleep. It’s not fair because I’m exhausted. I wish I could just shut my brain down, stop its obsessive over thinking. I wish I could stop my back from aching so I could feel comfortable. I wish one of my reactions to anxiety wasn’t feeling this need to […]