I can only get away From the blackness The pain Agony When I’m asleep Because for a few moments I’m free And I can give myself a break But lately sleep has become harder More elusive And I find myself thinking: What if one day I can’t escape What if I have to spend the […]
I am a useless mother And a useless wife I am nothing And nobody I hate myself
I feel worthless. I feel ugly. I feel taken for granted. I feel unappreciated. I feel stupid. I feel repulsive. I feel unlovable. I feel disgusting. I feel hated. I feel a burden. I feel a disappointment. I feel unimportant. I feel like I’m drowning and nobody has noticed. Nobody looks hard enough to notice. […]
Bizarre thing. I’ve had two energy drinks today because in the past I’ve noticed that they can lift my mood if I’m low. But now I’ve come to the conclusion that it is dependent on the intensity of the low mood as to how effective the drink is. Right now, I feel incredibly low and […]
It’s like I’m drowning. Surrounded by oxygen I can’t inhale, oxygen that’s poison in disguise. I can’t shake this low mood today. I feel so lethargic and so intensely depressed. I feel hopeless.
The quote I mentioned in my earlier post. I thought it was a cute little illustration. And a poignant statement.
I’ve had quite a relaxing day so far. My husband let me rest a lot as I’m not feeling top notch, and he cleared up loads of the mess in the kitchen before he went to work. I’m so grateful. So now I’m just chilling out counting down the minutes until I need to get […]
I love keeping up to date with the News, but at the same time I hate it. There’s so much misery and pain and depravity in this world that sometimes it overwhelms me with this sense of hopelessness. Of course there are good things too, inspiring things, happy things etc etc, but I’m struck by […]
Why must positivity always seem so fleeting? Why can’t a good feeling last? I hate the rollercoaster I’m on.
Black black black Alone afraid hurting Nobody cares Never good enough Hate the world Drowning with a fake smile on my face Leave me alone Want to escape Want to die Darkness despair destruction Alone always alone Never good enough