I Am Anxiety And Depression

I don’t like school holidays. I love my kids, but I don’t like having to deal with them 24/7. And as my 4 year old girl is used to attending nursery full time she has a lot of energy to kill, which means hyperactivity, temper issues and disobedience. Argh. I feel like I’m not good […]

Brightness In The Blackness

Ugh, I’m such a mess. I’m in such a horrible phase right now (at least I hope it’s a phase) where I get these seriously intense low mood patches and it’s honestly terrifying. I feel so hopeless and that there is truly nothing to live for anymore because reality is either too scary or too […]

Kaleidoscope

Today a Health Visitor came round to see my one year old son and check his general progress. I suppose she was nice, but I found it hard to see that because in my opinion she was a bit tactless in some of her phrases, and also I just don’t like people in my house […]

Existing

Living and existing are not the same thing. To live implies purpose, a reason behind action and thought. A sense of identity. A moral compass. Hope. Joy. Plans. Excitement. Actually being bothered. To exist is much less. It is to simply be, without direction or necessity. No one needs you. You float through the world […]