I love good days. They are worth living for. And they remind me of what it means to be happy. I love laughing and I love that I am married to my best friend, who is great at making me laugh. Today was good.
A day when things seem to be getting a bit better. I’m well aware this is probably just the upward slant of the eternal up-and-down wave I’m living called anxiety and depression, but there’s no doubt the upward slant feels a heck of a lot nicer than the downward one. I’m kind of afraid of […]
Ever have that feeling where you have a million options and yet you’re bored out of your skull? Snap. I hate this intense lack of interest in life in general. I want to occupy myself, but feel like there’s nothing I want to occupy myself with. Eating is too much hassle. Watching something is too […]
So on the bright side I managed to calm down enough to deal with my little girl last night. On the down side, I had a massive blow up with my husband this morning. We were both tired and said things we shouldn’t have, and even though he left for work on a good note […]
I am completely and utterly exhausted. Having a panic attack has that effect. I despise it. But I’m glad this particular attack is over. I’ll enjoy this break while it’s here.
The quote I mentioned in my earlier post. I thought it was a cute little illustration. And a poignant statement.
I’ve had quite a relaxing day so far. My husband let me rest a lot as I’m not feeling top notch, and he cleared up loads of the mess in the kitchen before he went to work. I’m so grateful. So now I’m just chilling out counting down the minutes until I need to get […]
Why must positivity always seem so fleeting? Why can’t a good feeling last? I hate the rollercoaster I’m on.
I spoke to my Dad today on the phone, and for the first time I was honest with him about how things are with me. I mean, I’m honest all the time, but I’m usually more generic with my responses, giving blanket answers rather than specifics. And I often downplay things a little. But today […]
I had a doctor’s appointment today (unrelated to my mental health) and even though I felt on the edge of panic a few times sitting in that waiting room with strangers, I am proud to say I kept it under control, and without use of propranolol. I am making progress, I can see that, and […]