I can only get away From the blackness The pain Agony When I’m asleep Because for a few moments I’m free And I can give myself a break But lately sleep has become harder More elusive And I find myself thinking: What if one day I can’t escape What if I have to spend the […]
I don’t want to exist anymore. I don’t want to endure another second of this pain. I can’t bear it anymore. I’m alone and my son won’t stop screaming and I am paralysed by anxiety so I can’t go to him to comfort him and there are just all these expectations of me like getting […]
Today I am lying in bed with tears pricking at my eyes because nobody understands and I can’t do this anymore.
Black black black Alone afraid hurting Nobody cares Never good enough Hate the world Drowning with a fake smile on my face Leave me alone Want to escape Want to die Darkness despair destruction Alone always alone Never good enough
Ever get that feeling where you’re surrounded by things to do, but you’re still bored out of your skull? Yeah. That’s how I’m feeling right now. And it sucks. There’s a lot of housework that needs doing, but I can’t be bothered. I put a washing load on because I had to, but that’s all […]
Life is the cruel irony of being so overwhelmed that you’re suffocating, and yet no matter how you yearn for release you don’t die.
Ugh, I’m such a mess. I’m in such a horrible phase right now (at least I hope it’s a phase) where I get these seriously intense low mood patches and it’s honestly terrifying. I feel so hopeless and that there is truly nothing to live for anymore because reality is either too scary or too […]
Second best Rejected always Alone and pathetic I hate myself
I’m a paranoid mess of anger and bitterness. I’m laying here at half three in the morning because I can’t get back to sleep. All I keep thinking about is what my husband might be keeping from me. Yesterday I found evidence on his phone that he’d been chatting with a couple of women and […]