I don’t want to exist anymore. I don’t want to endure another second of this pain. I can’t bear it anymore. I’m alone and my son won’t stop screaming and I am paralysed by anxiety so I can’t go to him to comfort him and there are just all these expectations of me like getting the kids dinner and putting them to bed and I can’t face any of it. Why is nobody here with me? Why does nobody care? I feel like I’m always freaking alone when I need help most.