Let me introduce you to my friend Fear. We’re super tight, we literally go everywhere and do everything together. She’s an awesome friend; the kind that never leaves your side. Fear knows what’s best for me, even when I’m not sure myself. She’ll remind me over and over that the best way to stay safe […]
In a nutshell.
Terrified of life, I want to shrink down to the size of an ant, and vanish.
It’s like a literal weight on my body, several times heavier than me, slowly crushing the life out of me. No one else can see it, to them I look fine. Normal. But I’m not. I’m overwhelmed by life. I’m surviving, I’m existing, but I’m not sure for what purpose. I know the suffocating depressed […]
I’ve got a knot in my stomach and I’m drowning in despair. Hello anxiety and depression, feel free to control my body and wreak your havoc. I’m almost too depressed to care. Almost. I just want to escape.
I can only get away From the blackness The pain Agony When I’m asleep Because for a few moments I’m free And I can give myself a break But lately sleep has become harder More elusive And I find myself thinking: What if one day I can’t escape What if I have to spend the […]
I am a useless mother And a useless wife I am nothing And nobody I hate myself
I am completely and utterly exhausted. Having a panic attack has that effect. I despise it. But I’m glad this particular attack is over. I’ll enjoy this break while it’s here.
I don’t want to exist anymore. I don’t want to endure another second of this pain. I can’t bear it anymore. I’m alone and my son won’t stop screaming and I am paralysed by anxiety so I can’t go to him to comfort him and there are just all these expectations of me like getting […]
I feel worthless. I feel ugly. I feel taken for granted. I feel unappreciated. I feel stupid. I feel repulsive. I feel unlovable. I feel disgusting. I feel hated. I feel a burden. I feel a disappointment. I feel unimportant. I feel like I’m drowning and nobody has noticed. Nobody looks hard enough to notice. […]