Anxious Thoughts and Black Feelings

I despise this world. Life is so unfair. I know I’m sounding selfish because there are so many people out there worse off than me, but I just hate it! There’s this darkness hanging over my life and I can’t shift it. When things feel like they can’t possibly get any worse, they do. My existence is […]

Life’s a Mess

Today’s definition: stressful. I’ve been reminded of how adversely I react to change and how much I rely on stability and consistency. I hate it when I’m required to handle a spontaneous change like a normal person because, newsflash, I’M NOT A NORMAL PERSON. I’m messed up and under a lot of pressure from all […]

I See Nothing But Mental Illness

I feel like I’m losing grip on who I am. Every day I feel like I’m falling deeper into a blackness that will soon become all-consuming. I’m so frightened. I can’t see a light at the end of this tunnel, and I’m terrified that there isn’t one. What if I’m like this forever? What if […]

Not Fulfilled

I’ve been finding it difficult to blog recently, hence my radio silence. I don’t know why. My anxiety and depression have been quite hard to deal with and I guess that’s affecting my motivation to blog. There’s not really much going on for me right now. My daughter is at school and she’s doing well, […]

The Barbed Wire Fence

I can’t escape There’s a barbed wire fence It’s closing in The only way out is to die But I feel as if I’m dead anyway What is life without this darkness? I cannot remember. All I am And all I feel Is black despair and stifling pressure Existence without purpose Imprisoned in my mind […]