Today is another exhausted day where I just want to curl up in bed and sleep. I miss my husband and his shift can’t possibly go fast enough today. I don’t know what more to say. I’m not particularly low today, I just have no energy.
I wonder if having someone to blame helps or hinders. I feel like the reason my anxiety and depression is as severe as it is right now is my mother. I blame her. And at times, I hate her. I hate her when I’m so overwhelmed by life that I want to cease existing. I […]
I eat junk because I feel low. I feel low because I feel ugly. I feel ugly because I eat junk. And the cycle continues.
I can’t cry. I’ve tried, but I can’t. I want to, but I can’t. What’s wrong with me? I researched it a little and apparently the inability to cry is a symptom of depression, and it can be linked to an increase in the severity of the depression. I don’t understand what’s happening to me […]
Today has been a bit of a rollercoaster. First off, my husband left for work at 5:30am (as he has been all week so far) and that was alright, I’m getting used to it. Then I was woken up at 7:20ish by a loud knock on the door and it occurred to me that it […]
Today I’m tired. It doesn’t make much sense because I had an okay amount of sleep, plus I had a nap this morning as well. And I’ve been resting practically all day. But I’m still so flipping exhausted! I know it’s all part and parcel of depression, but most days I’m okay. Today though… ugh. […]
Today has been a positive day and I’m glad about that. I love feeling happy and laughing. It’s one of the most blissful things.
That feeling where you have to use every bit of willpower you have to stop yourself descending into a panic – I hate it. Sometimes I literally have to withdraw into myself, I close my eyes and cover my ears and block the world out and wait for the feeling to subside. It’s that feeling […]
Not too long ago it started raining really heavily. My 3 year old daughter and I were upstairs in my bedroom and the window was open. She loves the rain, so we were both leaning up against the windowsill watching it. Then she asked if she could go out in the rain. Normally I’d dismiss […]
I’m pretty sure I have low times every day. And then sometimes I just have a low day full stop. I am so fed up with depression and anxiety. I wish there was some quick fix. I wish these mental illnesses were better understood by the general public. I wish I wish I wish… Wishing […]