Today I feel like I’m floating.
I feel like I’m sort of drifting through life feeling numb. I feel like I should feel stressed or low or panicked or something, but there’s just nothing. I’m just going through the motions, doing what I need to do without reacting like I normally do. My house is a mess but I’m not even bothered. I’ve been pretty useless today but that doesn’t bother me either.
What is happening to me?
Why am I all of a sudden so calm? I’m not complaining; this weird drifting feeling is definitely preferable to panic or crushing depression. But it’s just weird. I don’t know how long I can expect it to last, so I’ll just try to enjoy it. The absence of stress is so noticeable, this calmness feels so foreign.
But it’s nice.